My Creative Escape

I can not tell you how much all of your comments have meant to me regarding my below post!  I have gotten so much out of them!  Despite my reservations of doing a post about my current situation, I now am so glad I did.  Many of you have shared with me from your experiences, and the encouragement and support has truly touched my heart!  I will refer to them for years to come I am sure.

A while back I shared with you the emotional reasons tied to my strong desire to take on redecorating our home in THIS post.  When I started this project I knew it would bring me a refreshing start, but it has provided me with so much more than that!

I clean when I am stressed or upset.  I am not sure why, but it started at a early age.  I can remember being at a middle school friends house, and when we got in an argument I started to clean her room!  lol This did not make her too happy.  My husband on the other hand seems to love it haha.

Yesterday was a very particularly hard day.  And as I caught myself rearranging the pillows, and thinking about painting the picture frames white, I noticed my breathing calm and I was able to relax.

Prior to remolding this did not provide much relaxation.  I did not find my self at home, and it just provided unpleasant thoughts of my up bringing and lost identity.  But now I find such a since of self and peace in my home that it calms me much more than I thought it would.  After struggling for so long to find a since of my self and security, having my own peaceful haven to care for really helps me through the challenging days.

Realizing the soothing effect it has had on me, when my husband got home last night I thanked him from the bottom of my heart of letting me have the lead in this redecorating endeavor.  I know that some men would not put up with things like my lace garland I recently put up over the windows, or the ruffle pillows.

I feel like my little work in progress home has provided me with more of a creative escape than anything else could right now.  As I was thanking him, he said to me . . . "If I am honest with you, will you hold it against me?"

I thought to my self, oh dear, I hope that this is not going to be the dreaded moment where he tells me I have stole his masculinity and I need to pull it all down!

But instead he said no such thing!  Instead he said "It is hard to explain, but it's like finally stepping out of a cave and taking in a breath of fresh air."  You know he would kill me if he knew I shared this!

I sighed as my worries slipped away.  The last words exchanged between us before calling it a night where . .

"Honey I promise I will take down the fro fro blue prom dress in the morning"

"What dress?"

"The one hanging off the light in the dinning room." I said

He replied " It's alright, honestly I don't mind."

I could not have asked for anything more!

 

 

Comments

[Dollie's Daughter]

I think your husband worded it perfectly! It is such a lovely breath of fresh air. So light, airy and calm. I greatly appreciate your previous post regarding the challenges you are going through. Just know love will see you through. The love you put into your family and home will override everything else in the end. Just know God, family and friends are always there to help. Your little one is so adorable and precious. What a lucky little guy to have such a talented and caring mother and father. Love to you all. Lisa

[molly knox]

OMG! how sweet Dale is! i got choked up reading this post. so glad you two have each other...btw think he could call doug up sometime and tell him that lace isn't all that bad :) lol

[Karen DeCapite]

You crack me up. And yes, you are lucky, because Mark would just shoot me dead if I did any more "phoof" than I already have downstairs .... I'm almost scared to tell him what I'd like to do to the master bedroom - guess I better save that for a rainy day! :)

O your weekend went well, I am so happy for you.
Deep breath-
One day at a time-
You are an awesome Mom!
Hugs. Karen

[Heidi]

Hi Cass -

Looking fab! You know, where I live most don't decorate in this palate, but I have had more guys say they like it - and my hubby loves the lightness too!

xo H

[Sea Witch]

How dreamy these photos look. Sea Witch

[Erica]

It's beautiful!! Honestly, I don't think men notice too much, so don't fret about what you're putting in the house.

[Francie Thornton]

Now this is just what I wish for every woman, a precious husband just like yours and mine.
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[debi]

Oh Cassandra, everything looks so beautiful! I can tell you're having fun with it.